Can I have a side of Fun with that?

Sigh.

I would like a do-over please!  Half way through this day, and have found myself reacting (and over reacting at that)instead of living in the moment.

On days off I have to fight all the urges and voices in my head.  (Yes, I said voices, plural, in my head.  It explains a lot huh?)

They are telling me that I am lazy if I just sit on the floor with the kids on my day off, instead of cleaning or at last putting away the giant pile of laundry.

I nag myself relentlessly, stop and read stories with the kids, or dust?  Chase them around the house, tickling them like crazy, or do the next load of laundry?

I HATE that days off are so hard to enjoy, like I am not working enough even when I am NOT "supposed" to be working!

It makes me think of talking to a few Americans about my working vacation in Mexico.  They ask what we did.  I say "um, went to the beach everyday, floated in the ocean, swam in the pool, ate".  They say things like "that is all?!  Do scuba diving?  No zip lining?  No cruises?!  JUST laying around with your kids??"

I get the distinct impression that I did not "work" hard enough having "fun" on my vacation.

Strange, right?  I think so.

But this is like the feelings I am giving myself on days off.  Like if I am not working around the house then by golly I better be off doing something amazingly fun and exciting with the kids to fully make the most of my freaking "fun time".

Geeze, how fun is that?